November 27th, 2013

I Could Brag, But I Won’t

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Written by: Gene

Even though I make it a point to not complain online, I find myself in a situation that I would like to share with you.

This situation is not an uncommon one, and many of you may find yourselves in the same boat. In fact I read in 2 Corinthians 12:6-10 that Paul faced the same issues when he wrote, “For though I might desire to boast, I will not be a fool; for I will speak the truth. But I refrain, lest anyone should think of me above what he sees me to be or hears from me. And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

I have been told several times in my life (by people that I cared the most about) that they don’t want anything to do with me. They have lied about me to others (that also mean a lot to me), and have no concept of the damage done nor do they have any remorse for their actions. Really that isn’t the issue… I forgive them.

I must forgive them because there is healing and strength in forgiveness, and I do not want anything to come between me and my Lord Jesus Christ.

Through this, I have washed my hands of the situation, and have moved on.  Now, when I say “washed my hands”, I do not mean it in a bad way. I do not wish bad on them, but I realized that I can no longer speak into their lives because of the barrier that they have put up between us. I realized that if they are to know the truth, I must get out of the way of the Holy Spirit, and allow Him to speak to them.

We all have areas of our lives that seem to be the main avenue by which challenges come, and mine is through the lies of those who hate me. I cannot tell you how many times I have had to deal with these types of things, and how much it hurts to find out that someone who you thought had your back, was actually stabbing knives into it.

The Apostle Paul had the same type of issue. It seemed that everywhere he went, there were those who were right behind him, spreading lies and trying to turn others against him. All he wanted to do was spread the Word that set people free, and his enemies could not have that happen because they liked the control, that spiritual slavery gave them over others.

In 1 Corinthians 9:15-17 Paul said, “But I have used none of these things, nor have I written these things that it should be done so to me; for it would be better for me to die than that anyone should make my boasting void. For if I preach the gospel, I have nothing to boast of, for necessity is laid upon me; yes, woe is me if I do not preach the gospel! For if I do this willingly, I have a reward; but if against my will, I have been entrusted with a stewardship.”

I remember the day that I told The Lord that I was miserable because I wasn’t doing His will. I had gotten to the point, where nothing else mattered but the persuit of a daily obedient life to God Almighty. This made some people mad…

They liked me miserable, because they could control me. Now that I was happy in The Lord, they lost control of this once broken man. I was told that I could not make it without them, that I had no skills or talent, that I wasn’t worth listening to and had nothing to say. I was informed that I would be broke, lonely and that I would be back. I was accused of being mean, violent, angry, perverted and selfish. I gave and gave of all I had to them (literally had to walk away with the shirt on my back several times), but I was still worthless to them (even though my stuff wasn’t).

Everything that I did and said to try to convince them otherwise bore no fruit with them. I had to wash my hands and leave them to the loving hands of the Holy Spirit.

I learned that everyone on this planet will fail me… except my God.

Jesus picked me up, dusted me off, told me that I had worth, showed me His Father’s hand crafted plan for my life, and asked me to follow Him. He gave me the Holy Spirit to comfort and guide me, He lovingly corrects me along life’s path, He restored my soul when I am confused, and He has supplied me with the same power that Jesus had when He walked the earth.

It seems that every time I am moving on in Him, enjoying my life, those who hate me come along. I just don’t get it…

They told me to go away and I did, but they come around me way too often, and try to tell me to get over them.

If I am crap to you, flush me and let me go.
If I am not worth your time, why waste your time spying on me?
If you want nothing to do with me, why do you constantly try to make me come back to you?
If I can’t meet your needs, then why try to constantly take what you think is important to me?

Jesus is important to me, and you can never take that… The Good News? You can have the same Jesus that I do. We can share Him.

You will never be happy if you keep focusing on getting your happiness from me. But, if you would only allow yourself to have that perfect relationship that Christ offers, you would finally find peace and happiness.

It is your rebellion that has made you miserable. I know because I was miserable too when I was in rebellion to God.

Let me explain where rebellion will take you:
Poverty – I was poor, but now I am happy and content with less and that makes me richer than Donald Trump
Sickness – I was in bondage to insurance and doctors, but I serve the great physician and am healthy
Strife – I fought everything good that came around also, but my fight was with God. When I yielded to Him and was at peace with Him, I found myself at peace with others
Disillusioned  and Lost – In rebellion, every plan I made fell through my fingertips, but I don’t have to plan any longer, because I am following Him.
Unhappy and Discontent – I was miserable too, but Jesus meets all my needs. I don’t need money, things or people to be happy, all I need is Christ.

As I prayed about you, Jesus told me that those who hate me, hated Him first. He also said that my fight wasn’t with you, but it was with the devil who is a liar. I was also told not to lie, because those who lie are following their father the devil. He finally told me to do only what He told me to do, and let Him love on you.

You can keep on coming at me, but I forgive you. I am made stronger each time you come at me, but I still feel sorry for you. I wish you had what I have, but your focus is all wrong. I pray that as I fight off the devil, that you are not a casualty.

I don’t have a lot of money and possessions, and frankly I don’t want that. The Lord supplies my needs to the point that I have made it a goal to reduce my dependance on “cash” so that I am free to go wherever God asks me to go.

Am I bragging on my having nothing? Nah… I just want you to know that I appreciate it that I have learned to be free of those types of focuses.

I have written all this in hopes that you, the reader, will be able to let go and be willing to walk away from those things that you cannot change. I hope that you will embrace the will of God for your life and be completely obedient to Him. I want you to to grow to be happy, content and at peace with what He’s has for you, and for you to stop trying to gain and control what isn’t for you to have and do. My desire is that you will allow yourself to fully trust Him to handle the situations that come your way, and that you will grow stronger, healthier, wealthier and peaceful in Jesus Christ.


About the Author

A husband to an awesome wife, father to 3 beautiful girls, step-father to a beautiful girl and smart son. Preacher, Designer and best of all a Servant to a loving and gracious God.

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